I am finding the time during my recovery to sit down and think about my life goals. I am thinking about what I want to be when this journey to health is over. I am thinking about how I want to proceed with my life after all of this. One thing is for certain. The more I think about my hopes and dreams, the more certain I am not the person I want to be. But, I have two choices. I can sit here and wallow in self-pity or I can do something.Continue reading → A Road Less Traveled
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Over the last few months, I have been frustrated with my body. I have been frustrated with myself for putting myself in this situation. I have been battling demons. Demons that tell me to give up. Demons that tell me that I am not supposed to be fighting this journey.
In January, I was walking down a flight of stairs after making a food delivery. As I walked down the stairs, I missed a few steps. When my foot went down to the ground, my knee buckled and I fell. In that one instance, I broke my tibia plateau on my right knee. I was devasted because I had to be in bed with a brace from my right buttocks to my ankle. I could not sit in a chair. I could not maneuver around my small one bedroom apartment.Continue reading → It takes a lot to take me down
Looking in the mirror can be one of the hardest things a person can do when they are overweight. The mirror holds nothing back. It shows every curve and blemish. What’s worse is the fact that it is staring back at us and sometimes, that is to much to handle.
Three months into my new journey and I am still struggling. But my struggle is different now. I look at my face in the mirrior and I struggle to see the changes. I struggle to see if this journey is really working for me. (Almost 35 lbs down, I know it is working.) But, when you see your face every single day, you do not always see the changes right away. When I see my face in the mirror, I still see that woman who was scared to death. I still see the woman who does not want to face life and face reality.Continue reading → Struggling with reality
I am going to put out a disclosure at the beginning of this blog post. My disclosure is simply, I love my WW community. Throughout this journey, I have found friends through the WW community on Connect. But, I have seen a post repeatedly that I think needs to be addressed. Not because it is a WW issue, but because everyone who goes on this journey needs to understand it.
When we begin our weight loss journey no matter how many times we have done it before, we all focus on one thing. I have x amount of pounds to lose. I want to lose my weight. And then when something happens and we don’t lose in a particular week, we get upset. This mindset leads to failure. I am telling you from experience. If you become obsessed with the scale, YOU WILL FAIL. Continue reading → What are we doing?
In the past 3 1/2 weeks, my world has changed. It has changed for the good. As I look back I wonder what has changed so drastically that I actually see good in things I used to see bad in. But, I realize, my outlook has changed because I am putting myself first.
Since joining WW, I have lost 11.6 lbs, I am feeling healthier and I am feeling more like myself. But, more than that, I am realizing that I am worth taking the time to be me. I have broken out of the feeling that I need to be something for someone else. I don’t have to be anything to anyone but me. Continue reading → Happiness is more than a number
My husband and I went out and had a glorious day today. Since my husband has accepted a new job, his schedule is a little iffy. So, we wanted to celebrate his birthday a little early.
If you know my husband at all, you will know he is a proud Buffalo native. He loves Buffalo, NY, almost as much as he loves me. So when a Anchor Bar opened in Fredrick, Maryland, I knew I had to spoil the man and take him up there. So, this morning, we packed up and traveled over two hours for him to enjoy a taste of home.Continue reading → Lifestyle changes make all of the difference
I love to cook. I love spending time in the kitchen preparing meals for my husband. I love spending the time together. But, when I went to my first WW meeting, I was surprised to see that they had paired with Blue Apron and was offering our first two boxes at a reduced rate. I figured, why not? If it is going to make meal prep easier and it is going to be WW Freestyle Friendly, what did I have to lose.Continue reading → Blue Apron … an unexpected God send
There is an African proverb about raising children. The proverb states, “It takes a village to raise a child.” It does. It takes parents, grandparents, aunts and uncles, school teachers, pastors, Sunday School teachers, just to name a few.
But, there is another thing that takes a village: getting healthy. A lot of people want to hide the fact that they are on a diet. Many people are embarrassed that they need to go on one or are afraid they will fail and people will judge them. But, I learned a mighty lesson today. I need to break through those fears and insecurities. I need my village.Continue reading → It Takes a Village
I did it. I took the step. The very first step ever to take my life back last Friday. With fear and trepidation, I signed up for WW. It was the first time in a long time. The last time I truly was on it, I lost so much weight. But, because of medical needs and emotional needs, my weight came back on over the year. I cried as I signed up knowing that I was where I was all those years ago and I was starting over.
On Saturday, I walked in to the studio workshop for the first time. Shaking, scared, embarrassed. I sat in my car for a moment as everyone was going in and just took a deep breath. I didn’t want to walk in. There were all these people walking in and I felt like such a failure. How could I? I took a deep breath, and did it. I walked in.Continue reading → Taking the First Steps!