First, I have to say I have the best doctor in the world. I am so excited to have a doctor that actually listens to me, my concerns, and my body.
I have been thinking about my goal weight. Yesterday I told her I was going to want her to help me pick a goal weight. Where I want to end this journey. As I spoke to my doctor yesterday she said something very profound to me and I can’t stop thinking about it. “Weight is an emotional thing.” She said my body is going to pick its goal weight.
Weight is an emotional thing.
As our bodies change, our bodies know where to stop. Our bodies are only going to go so far. Weight is just a number. Doctors, she said, often put too much on that number. They are just one indicator of health. Not the only thing. She said the most important thing for me to do is to eat right, move my body, and be emotionally well and my body will work out the rest. I told her according to WW if my weight was outside what they considered the right goal weight I would need a letter. She reassured me that would not be a problem for her to write.
When I thought about that it freed me. It freed me to remember that I am not striving for a number on that stupid scale. I am fighting for my life to be happy. To free myself from the prison that I once put myself in. It reminded me of the first time I went on this journey. My husband took me on a hike. And oh was it a hike. We got lost on the trail and we walked for hours. It was fun though. We enjoyed being with one another and active agian. That’s what I am fighting for. That freedom from the feeling that I can’t do something because I am overweight.
At WW they have always stressed to us to remember our why. Why did we walk in the door. What were we looking for. What did we want. That discussion with my doctor yesterday reminded me. I don’t want a number. I want my life. I want to sit on my front porch in my old days rocking with my husband. I want to be able to celebrate life.
No matter where you are on this journey. Stop for a moment. Remember your why. Remember why you are doing this. You have got this. You can accomplish this. You can reach every goal you have ever wanted. You just got to remember your why and you will succeed.