So I am sorry I haven’t written a lot lately. Been kinda crazy.
First, my doctor has found a medication that will allow me to function! I am no longer in back pain. The question is how long am I allowed to stay on this medication. My leg no longer goes numb. I can sit in a chair for more than 15 minutes without being in excruciating pain. It has been so liberating. 🙂 I am enjoying life so much. As much as I can with the virus capturing the world.
Since I am immunocompromised, I am stuck in the house. My husband has been wonderful. He has gone and gotten all my meds, groceries, etc. He has been the king of all husbands. He has been so supportive. I can’t believe how grateful I am for this wonderful man.
My weight loss hasn’t stalled, but it is not as much as I would like. But, I think that is my body is getting to adjust and I am trying to find a new normal. I am really struggling with eating what I want and still maintaining wonderful health. My doctor’s appointment and counseling appointments were canceled because of the virus. Virtual appointments it is! Got to see if the counselor would be willing to do that, but my doctor’s office is now offering that. So, I am going to take full advantage of it.
Since nursing school is out of picture now because of my immunocompromised self and my back issues, I had to come up with something else to do with my life. I can’t believe I am about to write these words. But, I opened an online clothing business. I can’t believe it. I am so excited. But, none of this could have happened if I had not lost my weight. I would not have been able to have the confidence to do something like this. I would not be bold enough to say, “Yes, I can do this.” But, it has been so wonderful taking this step of freedom. It will be extremely hard. But, I know I can do it.
Weight loss gives you more than looking good. Weight loss gives you a sense of who you are as a person. I am know I can persevere though anything. I know that if I put my mind to it, I got it. I have accomplished so much in the last year. I have gone through a broken leg, torn medial meniscus surgery, a heart scare, and now my back. But, I did not stop. I kept going. I kept fighting for my freedom. My freedom from my body that was attacking me from the inside out. My weight was affecting who I was emotionally. It was affecting my self-image and self-esteem. I often questioned my husband how he could love me. I felt I looked like a ball walking around in a tent. But, he still loved me. And as he has loved me through my weight loss, he has helped give me this confidence I lacked.
So, I am thankful for my weight loss. I am thankful for WW (formally known as Weight Watchers). I am thankful that in the midst of this crisis they are holding virtual meetings and STILL providing the same support they always have.
No way to say it but this…..Life is Good. Thank you God!