I am sorry folks for not being more consistent with my blog postings. Life has been very strange for me the last few months.
First and foremost, I have remained consistent with my weight loss program. I have continued to work on tracking my food and increasing my activity. As of the writing of this post, I have lost 59.2 lbs! I am so excited about that. This has been a time of refreshing for me that I have needed.
But, what has changed. I am here to tell you, a lot.
- My Heart is Healthy – Over the course of the summer, I had knee surgery. A pre-op requirement was to get an EKG. Unfortunately, my EKG came back abnormal. It was repeated 3 times and it said the same every single time. So, my awesome doctor required me to get a Nuclear Stress Test. While I did not want to do it, I understood the importance. My grandfather had his first heart attack at 28, so there were serious concerns. Thankfully, the Nuclear Stress Test proved my heart is healthy and pumping normally.
- Regular Checkups – When I lost weight before, I did not focus so much on my health. I wanted to lose weight to look good and to have a baby. While looking good would be a great side effect, this time it is about me. I want to be healthy and I want to enjoy things I did before. So as part of that plan, I am participating in monthly check ups with my doctor. She insures that everything is working right.
- Counseling – I am currently looking for a counselor. I want to make sure that I equip myself to deal with the ups and downs with life. I want this to be the last time I lose weight. Yes, some of my weight came back on because of medical issues, but there was emotional eating as well. There were times I was drawn to food because of the need to feel better. I used it as a substitute instead of dealing with the underlying issues. I want to ensure that I am doing things to learn how to cope with those trying times.
- Enrolled in School – I have taken the bold step of going back to school at 42 to become an RN. I am currently enrolled int two of my pre-nursing courses, will apply for the nursing program this year and hope to start in August.
- Physical Activity – Just two weeks ago I received the word that my heart was good. The knee is still healing. I am beginning to increase my activity day by day. For example, this weekend I have planned an excursion to the local International Festival. There will be vendors, dancers, etc. It is getting me out of the house and it is increasing my activity.
You see, my journey is more about what I can do. Not about what I can look like. Yes, I want to look like the hottest chick on the planet for my husband. But, more than that, I want to be around for my husband. I want to be 80 and cooking for him. I want to be sitting on our front porch, sipping tea, and watching the world go by. If I don’t do this journey, my husband might as well start picking out a coffin for me. I don’t want to die. I want to live. And for me, losing weight will do that. It will give me my life back. And I am going to take it back.
Too many times we look for excuses. Too many times we look for reasons not to start a journey, whether it be weight loss or something else. But, if we are real with ourselves the only thing prohibiting us from accomplishing our goals is ourself. The only thing standing in the way of our future is us. I am not going to be my roadblock anymore. I have dreams and I am going to live them to the fullest. I am going to enjoy life. I am going to be the best me I can ever be.